The psychological story about the party

It was a cold windy Friday night that I saw it (optical lobe). It was a line of cars, all filled with my friends that were driving by my house with loud music pumping out from the windows. They were all chatting loudly, laughing and it look to me like they were having the time of their life. This made me feel very sad and left out (amygdala), why would all my friends be going somewhere without me? I could feel my heart racing (autonomic nervous system) and I clench my fists (parietal lobe). Maybe it was just a coincidence I told myself, why would they all decide to just leave me out of all of this. While I stood there reasoning (frontal lobe) with myself, I a paper all of a sudden blew up in my face. I grabbed it and read. It was an invitation, to a party. Tonight. The headline said "Biggest party of the year! You better be there!" The date was written in some cryptically way. It was a math puzzle, I quickly solved it in my head (left hemisphere), and was hardly surprised when I realised that the party was tonight.
     All of a sudden I just felt very tired (pons), remembering (hippocampus) as a child how my family once forgot to bring me food when they'd all gone out for dinner. This had always left a scar in my heart and I was never able to get over it. ¨
   All this worrying had made me really thirsty (hypthalamus) so I went to the refrigerator. I opened the door just a little bit to fast, I lost my balance (cerebellum) and swayed for a second to long. Luckily, with the help of the door, I managed to stay on my feet. I searched (central nervous system) the refrigerator for something to drink, but there was only food in there. I closed my eyes (somatic nervous system) and sighed.
   "No," I thought, "I can't just sit here and feel sorry for myself." I took my coat and jumped in the car. I was going to this party, invitation or not. I needed to know what was going on tonight. Maybe a little impulsive (right hemisphere), but hey, this was killing me! I arrieved to the place where the invitation said that the party would be, but really, it didn't seem to be a party here. I could see some of my friends, carrying some boxes into the house. I went out of my car and went up to my friends. Their faces were shocked. They didn't look too happy to see me. Something told me they were hiding something (reticular formation). For a second we stood there and doing nothing but just breathing (medulla) and looking at each other.
   "What's going on?" I asked.
   "Well, since it's all ruined now," one of my friends said "we'r having a suprise party for you. For your birthday."

defense mechanisms

So this week we learned about defense mechanisms. I think that it's interesting, because it's something we as humans and me as an individual use everyday in our lives. I am especially good at rationalization. Not only do I use it toward other people but also against myself. It ease the disappointment/guilt that comes up when I don't do something. For example I see that there is an activity on the school that I think seems interesting. But I'm sort of shy and insecure, so I don't know if I want to do it alone. So I just make up an excuse, oh well I'm fine without it and don't need to join it. It's not repression, I am aware of that I'm just making it up for myself but it's still easier.

So why do we need these? Why is it so hard for us to deal with the emotions that make us feel uncomfortable? Is it because it's a natural behaviour that we have within us, like the animals or is it something we learn as we grow up? I think it might be both, but I think that what we are more influenced of what we are experience and see in our life. I think so since we are all different and come from different backgrounds. I guess I believe the behavioral perspective on that one. I do believe that we have all of these mechanisms in us from when we get born. But what might be the cause of all of this is that we are lazy and like to take the easy way. It's a little bit like procrastinating, maybe that's what we do all the time, just in different ways. I think we like to live in our perfect little bubble and we do what we can to keep it that way. It is important to know that we have these though and that in the long time we will have to deal with our feelings whehter  we want it or not.

(time published: 10:40 pm)

Blogging Assignment #1

Ok, so I'm Amanda. I am 17 years old and I am an exchange student from Sweden. Next week I've been here for four months... It's scary how time flies. It's hard right now, I'm pretty homesick I guess, but I'm fine though. This fall I've taken up tennis again which was so much fun, and now, I'm on the ski team. I love doing sports here, I really do, it's so much fun and really serious. In spring I'm going to do track I think. At home, I go to upper secondery school, called Marina Laroverket, I guss if you translated that it would be the Marine school. My program is called Leadership and commuincation, we do a lot of physcology, leadership and speech. The main idea is to make sure that people get more confident about themselves and get to know yourself better. Also, since it's a marine school, my class get to go out and sail for a total of 9 weeks over 3 years. It is the best thing ever and I love my school, I really do.

So about psychology, well, I read it back home the entire last year. It's hard to say what I know though, last year we did a lot of experience based learning. We did study theorys of like Freud, the Maslow stair, Johari window and a lot of prespectives. I know a lot of myself, that's the main thing what i learned last year, I can definetly say that I know myself better now, and I understand people around me better. I chose this course because it's very interesting and I think it's fun. I hope that I can learn more about people in general and apply the theories to life in general.